TO GRACE

As I sit here I reminisce over what you must be feeling; the thoughts that pervade your thinking humbles me knowing that no words could ever comprehend what sinks your heart the deepest!  There are no words to calm the world of newness that awaits you.  There is nothing that I can give which would help to ease this loss though I can be here for you and your family sitting while understanding with the faintest sound of comfort.  Losing a loved one is hard enough, losing a lover is even harder.

I won’t pretend that I can understand or know what you are feeling though as I remember the gaze in your eyes I am reminded of a similar one – my very own superhero!  In cartoons they never die and in real life they continue to exist in the fabric of our thoughts.  We exude the very essence of who they are, better yet who they were, through the character instilled within us by these fantastic icons.  These figures of communities, whom everyone loves and marvels has found solace in knowing that their God lives and that their God awaits them.  Still these cannot console nor can they ease the pain of a broken heart;  for this is what love does.  It sinks into the deepest of notions surrounding everything as swift as a river’s current.  It sweeps through consuming everything until one day we have traded our sorrows for joy, our pain for song, our heartache for peace and yet still our mourning for grace.  As He said to Paul, “my Grace is sufficient”, He did not mean it for good times, nor in those sad times.  He meant it always, for all time and yet, even these words cannot calm the burden that you, my dear must carry.

Your burden is not your sorrow, it is your destiny – it is all things which have been instilled within you!  It is the legacy fostered by a young man and women which grew into a framework better still a pattern to be followed.  These are the breadcrumbs which if used properly will make us better.  They are those moments that we see within ourselves when no one else is watching.  This is the time to be strong, to take courage and to love continuously and incessantly.

Whatever you may need consider this an invitation.

Stronger

I find myself to be at odds with myself. I’m conflicted with my own passage it seems that my love has taken me on a journey well beyond what this dream ever believed to pursue. At odds with myself, at odds with my dreams at odds with this path that I firmly must follow. Sitting here half asleep I stare deep into the whispering clouds watching as they stare back at me I contemplate what this must be, what kind of love is this that I would chase so readily.


Life has some amazing turns and yet I find peace within each of them. Sure no one prefers being in the throes of the time but always I find that my passion increases with each. “Don’t allow yourself to be boxed in instead box out the world, box out the thing that derails your dreams”, those clouds whisper back at me.


I contemplate, then I think more, I contemplate once again only to find that I myself am stronger because of it. With each dream my vision increases, with each triumph my dream becomes more real. I am stronger, stronger because of it, stronger through it stronger to do it. In this year, at this time, I solidify that beyond the walls that keep me so bound I will not stand in front of it staring it down as a beaten boxer nor will I climb it only to fall, I will not allow it to box me in or sit waiting for courage to resurface. I vow this time with this life within me that I will tear down these walls that surround me. I will see me renewed and refreshed. I solidify that today I am stronger that no chains can hold me, no weight can crush me, no circumstance can overtake me because I am stronger.

I will tear down these walls because I am renewed – I am stronger!


Photography comes with its lessons as do these dreams that surround us daily…